That feeling. Pregnant at the age of 33.

 It wasnt like any other mornings.

I woke up feeling fatigue, slight fever and bloated.

Texted husband telling him I dont feel well. Then suddenly I was purging. It was that horrible bitter vomit. 

Being away especially after getting married is hard. But I am blessed to have my parents nearby.

Was only away from husband less than a month as he had to leave to attend his annual training. 

To make things worse, due to Covid he's unable to come back home.

I wasnt expecting anything to be honest. I know I was only few days late. But I really thought I just caught the bug. As I wasnt feeling well, texted my colleague saying I'm having a slight fever that I dont think I can attend the client and requested to reschedule.

The rest of the week went by normally. I was more to bloated and had back cramps.

Nothing weird or different.

As we are also preparing for our wedding reception. I did most of the preparation on my own since husband is away. So went to dress fitting on my own and what nots. It was like any other day.

I didnt have any morning sickness or anything. 

I still remember it well.

As it was ibu's birthday when we had dinner with the whole family. My sister in law just found out she's actually two months pregnant. So we were talking about the fatigueness and all. Then she looked at me and ask "Lisa pregnant ke?"

I laughed saying tak lahhhhhh.

Then, it just hit me to buy pregnancy test. Also at the same time, my husband said he might be able to come back for one or two night that weekend. So I thought might as well test when he's around.

So one of the evening after work, I bought this test. Cari yang paling murah dekat guardian. Haha. Dapat dua test. I think it was RM10-12. 

It was November 29th morning when my husband was back in my arms (for one night only). He was asleep when I took shower and did the test. I put it aside and put on my cloth and took it out to him.

He was half asleep when I showed it to him.

I was beyond happy. Excited. Scared. Terrified.

And this was his reply. We kept it a secret from our family as they said to wait it officially. And as calculated based on my last period, I was more or less 3-4 weeks pregnant. So I thought to wait until 9 weeks to scan and get a sight of baby. 

Then I  packed food for husband said goodbye to him as he leaves for KEM again. 

Thats when the journey really begins.